Me

Written by LCDR Roberto J. Prinselaar
From the Book "Tears of Ink"

"Me"

For years and years I really did
Keep all my bad thoughts safely hid

Those bad-assed memories tucked away
If someone asked, I wouldn't say

A real tough bastard, that was me
No one could touch me, can't you see

The past was past and buried deep
And only sometimes I couldn't sleep

The first years were hard, a real bitch
Like I was doing another hitch

I drank alot and went through hell
My fucked up life wasn't doing well

All this went on ten years or so
I wasn't dead, so more to go

I saw a doctor once, a shrink
A real know nothing civvie dink

I felt forgotten and alone
There just was no one in my zone

That's when I built my private wall
I shut my mind, and fuck'em all

I could face the world with no fear
I kept a pistol always near

Now that was one thing I could trust
Some fire power a real must

I really straightened up my life
With lots of help from my dear wife

I told her nothing, to be sure
Why take the chance without a cure

And then one day I saw the wall
Upon my life it cast a pall

But another vet said "Welcome Back"
My solid wall began to crack

It was then, I dared to cry
My prior years were just a lie

I had to face my times in hell
Another vet, someone to tell

I'm going to climb this goddamn hill
It may be steep and I may fall
But in the end, I'll tell it all

LCDR Roberto J. Prinselaar

Submitted by Sarge